I WONDER WHATS HAPPENING

All I could hear and see  was the mother’s weeping over the loss of their children, Couples remembering the memories with their loss spouse and crying in agony, Children weeping in loss of their parents. Without considering anyone almost every one crying aloud around in condolence of their loss one.

The ambulances were busy with their responsibilities, and that's when I saw a young teenager being carried into the ambulance in stretcher who was crying aloud and saying i just started my life, I had many goals to achieve, a dream to fulfill, a family to support and cherish them with memories of love and joy. Expressing his desire in utter pain he breathes his last and the ambulance doors were shut.

There was also an old man who might be in his 80's and exclaiming his desire “Though I have accomplished lots, lived my life to the fullest but still i was not ready to face the this pandemic was eagerly waiting for my 10 and 12 years old grandchildren to return back home after 5 long awaiting years who had be in company of her parents in America and missed our elderly presence of pampering them. Thanks to the technology that I could see them almost every week but my heart always long to  meet them hug them hold her tight walk with them play with them laugh with them scold them, hold them tight with in my arms”

I sense a fear of anxiety in myself, when a daughter was sharing her dreams with her elderly mother “I always had a dream to accomplish my goals and bring a smile on your face for all the hardship u have face throughout your life in bringing me up alone up to to who am I today where, in this world it’s really tough to be a single mother but u have proved to be the best mother”

Tears were rolling down my eyes, as they touched on my folded hands  i was confused why my eyes were in tears. Unable to witness more the hardship that was surrounding me I walked off from my still position.

What was different with this sunrise? A sudden outbreak of pain, agony, fear agony all left the morning to an unimaginable start, which was accompanied with news of many death and spreading of upcoming danger to humanity.

It was the innocent souls which were suffering due to the outbreak of the pandemic danger in which many were left unattended, many in tears, many in fear and anxiety, many in the midst of trails and tensions, many in loss of dear once,many in fear of the losing dear ones, many to abandon their families and stay alone just to protect them  from this dangerous outbreak.

The thought of such terrible outbreak leaves me with goosebumps and question myself of what is this outbreak all about Is this a realization of what i failed to understand or of how am living. Every morning is challenging with these thoughts that haunts my sleep every night and put my heart to still mode and force my brain to activate and answer those meaningless questions of “Is this courageous soul being obsessed by what is going around, is it finding loneliness in the crowd or is it in the midst of agony and going deep-down to depression with a tender smile”.

I wonder whats  happening………….